Life@Stanford

something to complain

Recently there are so many things which run against what I have expected. Annoying!!!!! Talked to my roommate last weekend. He said his gf was making the plan for the next whole year. I said I once used to do the same thing. But later I found my plan was just a plan. I couldn't fulfill each item on my plan which made me feel bad. So I have lived in a nonplanned situation for several year. I said I don't trust statistics or stochastic, but I have to admit that life is stochastic. You never know what will happen next. Roomie agreed but told me it is still a good thing to make plan in order to know your daily life much better. However, recent stuffs again double proved that life is a stochastic process. Plan is useless. What ppl need is stochastic control. Changing your plan more frequently and efficiently is a key to live peacefully. Two years ago, I had similar situation as today. I changed but took me almost a whole year. Now shall I take another year to do the second transition? This time there will be much more difficulties and obstacles if I want to change myself again. Talked to old friends, supervisors and they said all is due to myself that I am too nice. Actually that is not nice but "YU1" in Chinese. Two years ago I left Singapore to find a new environment to change myself. Now am I looking for another place to finish the second transition? UCLA might be good place. At least there I may find professors and students doing what I dream to do: PDE, Wavelet, Imaging...... At least I can try to work with Tony.

posted by Anwei @ 2:50 PM